I think I accidently managed to get a folk music group together in the span of about 15 minutes. That was easy.

I keep my job at the Queen Mary!!!!

::happy dance::
 

This week's going to be one Hell of an experience. Monday I have to re-apply and re-interview for my job at the Queen Mary as a whole new company is taking over ship operations. Tuesday I turn 22 (which isn't a bad thing at all) and have my test tour at the ship. Thursday I have my first official tour. And Friday I find out if I keep my job at the ship or not.

I'm terrified...but I'm trying to keep thinking positively. I'm being sincere when I say, though, that if I were to lose the Queen Mary I would be heart-broken.....absolutely heart-broken. I'm trying to be optimistic, but I can't shake a certain bad feeling out of the back of my mind.

So please, send positive thoughts my way and keep me in your prayers. I'd be eternally grateful and in your debt.

Height: 5' 8"
Weight: 202 lbs.
Chest: 42"
Waist: 40"
Hips: 41"

Progress. :^)

We had a bomb threat at work today. My co-worker was answering phones and working with this fellow who was having problems with something. She was telling him that there was nothing we could do right away, and that it was up to our committee of deans. He didn't like that and said "Consider this a bomb threat," and hung up.

While she had his account pulled up. Name, address, phone number.....the whole kit 'n kaboodle.

What a moron.

When I left Campus Safety was coming in take a report and very likely contact the police.
 

It's been a pretty damn good weekend. I spent much of the time watching historical/war movies and painting my miniature Warhammer 40K army. Since yesterday, I've watched "The Last of the Mohicans," "Gettysburg," "Apollo 13," "Patton," "Sharpe's Gold," "Glory," "The Crossing," and "Tora! Tora! Tora!" Yes....I would definitely call that a productive weekend.

There is something gnawing at my heart though, and the pain seems to increase each day. I can't help but feel that I've alienated some very, very dear friends of mine. I don't quite know what happened between us, but I feel that it's something I must've done. And it's made me question how good of a friend I really am. I've found that I'm a horrible one. Why? I don't like to go out very much, as I work a lot and like to spend time at home with my family and dogs. I contribute little in the way of conversation. This is because I'm either too shy to say anything, or don't think that people are interested in what I have to say. And when I do find something I'm interested in talking about, I have a tendency to ramble on......and I know people don't give a damn about it. But alas, that's not really related to how I'm a bad friend....just a tangent. Often I'm not willing to drop what I'm doing and answer my phone. Sometimes I don't call back. Sometimes I don't respond to text messages. I never sign on AIM to stay in touch with people. I don't get mad often, but when I do it explodes in a fiery torrent of profanity and yelling. I wonder why people are my friends sometimes. 

I'm a jerk and jackass by my actions alone. It's really no wonder I'm losing my friends.  

By writing this I am breaking the rule about using work computers for personal use. Frankly, however, I do not care at the moment. It's 9 in the morning, traffic made me a half hour late, and I'm here until 2 in the afternoon. Not to mention I'm feeling particularly disgruntled today due to some hard case students already.

A homeless guy just applied to come to school. Good for him, I say! That's the way to try and start over. It seems to be a change in the air of American society (at least to me), probably a reflection of change brought about by this new era in our nation's history.

 I graduated on Wednesday, which was nice. The commencement speakers went on for way too long though, but that's typical I suppose. Now I start anew in the fall at Cal State Long Beach. I just hope I can cut the mustard, as my last semester here at Fullerton College was dismal at best. I had a worse case of Senioritus than I did in high school, which is saying a tremendous lot.

I feel that I'm slipping and turning into a fat, lazy slob. My car and room are a mess, but I spend a lot of my free time wasting time on the computer looking at random crap. I just don't feel motivated to do much of anything. And I feel that I'm becoming an anti-social hermit once again. And I hate the prospect of becoming that again. I feel that I need to change who I am again in order to prevent myself from becoming what I despise.

It doesn't help that I fancy someone I work with either. My self-confidence is down, and this certainly doesn't help me at all. As always, I'm too afraid to take a step forward (due in large part to how I've been burned in the past in relation to this field). So I don't know what to do.

As always, I apologize for the rambling nature of this blog. Just needed to vent my frustrations, thoughts, etc. So yeah.
 

Things have been going rather well as of late. I opened my new show, "Knott's Preserved," at the All American Melodrama in Long Beach last week. In the first act I'm an Irish railroad worker, and in the second I'm a bumbling stage manager. It's a blast! I'm usually performing the Sunday matinees (starts at 2:00), so if you get a chance please come and stop by! It's a grand ol' time to be sure!

I graduate on Wednesday! I'm pretty darn excited about that. I'm going to be working at Admissions until August 21, as I start at CSULB on the 26, I'm eager to transfer...I looking forward to that too. Not so much about looking for a new job though. I've applied at a few places; most notably the Art Theatre. It'd be cool to work there and see how much it's changed since MI's departure.

And I have facial hair once again. Since leaving Rocky, I've had the oppurtunity to grow out my mutton chops. It makes me very happy. Still debating on whether or not I want to get a haircut though. I do like having long hair - and I seem to pull it off very well - but it is rather troublesome in this new play. Not to mention the movie I'll be working on in the summer. So I'll probably end up cutting it sometime soon.

Saw "Star Trek" on Saturday with my dad.

Perfect. Absolutely perfect! 

You're looking at one very pleased Trekkie. :^D

Given that my last post was about my redcoat, I thought that this was quite excellent! A friend of mine sent it to me earlier this morning and I had to share.